I wish you away
But you return at night
Beating on doors I closed to you
Where I shelter my heart
Where I closet my pain
Where I sit in darkness
I scream stop
The noise of your pounding
Or my heart diminishes
As I am diminished by your leaving
As I am diminished by the ways I sent you away
And you return again
You say nothing
I feel you there
My stomach tenses
My breath catches
You are a ghost
Where do the tears go that cannot be cried?
Where is the cessation of my sorrow?
How many nights must I endure you?
How many nights will I summon you back to torture me?